Labels: i see stars todayfirst day of work! 23-7-07 :) from now on im gonna keep my entries short and sweet. cos i dun think i have sufficient time to update every details. my first day of work, see numbers! dealt with Freight and Manifest Correctors. Profound right? almost a whole day of tutorial and hand-on try-outs with the figures. tally the figures and book-keeping.pheww...have never done that before. now it's gonna be tough! but can be fun when you got the hang of it. i hope to get hooked faster, so that i dun have to fear anymore. haha.before starting work, had this silly thoughts again. felt like running away from all these horrible feelings of doing scary things like those. lol. :p but sensible mind tells me to be strong! haha. =stupid= resting early for work tml :) must be happy working!
Labels: life's gonna be colourful.whee~JOB secured! here comes the PR! :)
oh yea!!!! guess what? guess what?? hahaha! I got a job offer already! wheeee~~~~ im damn happy. phewwwwsss....even more happy after the result of my pre-employment medical check-up was out. no problem! I got a job position as a Shipping Officer in Accounts Department! in (MSC)Mediterranean Shipping Company(Switzerland). It is a really big company, thats what my brother-in-law told me.
Can you imagine after months of jobs searching, finally i could settle down and get a PR. Im so happy about it!!! hehehe...
The workplace is at suntec Tower 4, level 34! whee! hehe...i was interviewed by the manager and then the director after that, on the same day, 16th July. after which i was accepted. wow! i cant believe it! everything was done quickly as i said i would like to start work asap. and it was supposed to be starting on the 18th of july as stated in the contract. so i went down to ICA to apply for my PR the next day. hehe..but my medical result was not out yet. so have to wait till monday to start working, 23rd July. hehe..but that would be fine so that I can get mentally prepared and shop for clothes. hehe...im excited and nervous at the same time. arghh..but im very very happy. i keep squeaking like a squirrel till i scared off my sis sometimes. i just dont know why when Im happy I would make such noises like that, like kid. haha...really too happy already. hahaha...but..got to be careful of office politics already. futhermore, it's a big company. better know my boundaries. hahaha..
finally my 12 years of singapore has been paid off by a PR. my long-awaited status. hehe...
Labels: donuts and hair
Stupid donuts!
oh my! i cant believe i waited for the stupid donuts for 2 hr 15 mins to be exact ok! i really cant believe it. i have never waited for anything like that before, not even hello kitty, not in my life. waste time. haha.. went out with Eunice for lunch cum tea time at cafe cartel, after that we walked around at raffles city to shop around and then we saw this 'donut factory' which i happened to see the same kind of donuts i have eaten back in Thailand. i cant believe how long the queue was. did it taste that nice to be worth waiting for? i didnt intend to buy but eunice's friends asked her a favour. so i just accompanied her to queue. in the end i bought them so i can vent my frustration on my waiting time. to make it worthwhile for me to wait that long for those pathetic donuts. the bakers and cashiers were doing so slowly manz. no sense of urgency at all. but they are still doing well in business. on my way home, i had this silly thought, what if some people rob me of my donuts? my effort would be really wasted then. lol. hahaha! stupid right?
So-called new hair :)
Today i dyed my hair reddish brown, something like copper colour. but i dont know why it was rather unsuccessful, everytime like that. my hair dont seem to absorb hair colours. it's so stubborn. hopefully after a few days it will turn out brighter...thats what usually it will happen.
feeling so sianz now...have been watching some sad korean dramas, so sad manz...i cried until my eyes are swelling red. haha...
and my stupid nephew asked me, " Ee-ee, how long have you been crying for ah?" idiot him. asked such a question!
okie lah, i gotta continue with my shows...
byeee
Labels: sick with lifewithout work comes the painful life
thinking about having no work at the moment, im so mentally stressed. even though im prepared to take it slowly and step by step. but the thoughts simply wouldnt go away. it comes occasionally when im financially stucked and nothing to do. stucked up life. so sianz..why???
haiz..there hasnt been a respond from Alexandra Hosp. which was my only hope and yet it disappeared just like that. im so sick! sick! sick! please help me...argh! why life hasnt been smooth for me now?? it's just simply sucks to be stucked at home rotting away and spending money which was not earned at all. keeps owing my bank account money. hopes to earn back the amount i spent asap. please please give me a job...
haiz...sometimes life is so stucked up due to my own attitude problems too. im just who i am. im not a perfect one. im too emotional and weak. i simply cant control. im not strong. i may look strong on the surface. but im not. yea. i will try my best to be strong no matter what. i will have to try to be a heck care person. and not to indulge myself into stupid or wild thinking. im just too silly on my part. sorry for giving you a lot of burden and tiredness. even the boredom to face my stupidity as such.
im just too problematic. i dont know how much i can improve myself or even change myself into someone i am not. it's really hard and it needs time. maybe some harsh learning experience that turn my life upside will make me pain enough to learn how to pick up strong skills of being a STRONG person. thats why i think i need to work!!
please give me work to do so that i will slowly explore the world. to be out of 'theory' life. i want 'practical' life. i would expect to see drastic changes. but i dont care. i wanna learn that part of life. i would expect myself to regret. but i have to face it in order to move out of my stupid life. my every stupidities. the moves, the actions and the mindset.
PSYCHOLOGICAL PROFILE
Labels: my PSYCHOLOGICAL test
//Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the centre of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out. \\
Labels: the interviewMy interview hmm...all done for my interview, was in excitement and nervousness, and then my dream was shattered when I saw my classmate who went there for the interview too. oh manz...not only that, there were supposed to be a few more others. argh! sadded liao. :( u know what? the there's engineering worksheet to do too! shit manz...very alike my studies materials, yet my foundation sucks. i didnt do well i guess. but as for others should be okie. the biomedical engineer said my foundation was not good, but if he were to give me a stack of notes to read, would i want to study on it? of Cos i said yes!! i would do anything to get the job. even to get me to study the hardest subject on earth manz...haha..maybe i might have a chance somewhere? hope so? hope so? haha...wish me luck! *Prays*
2 movies in the row! Today was supposed to meet deardear for tuition lesson de. supposed to be his teacher going to teach that kid de. in the end, the kid and the teacher went to watch movies. wat the hell...haha..i expected liao. this lazy boy. haha..school reopening soon liao, still dun want to buck up. dying to help him in maths. whereby i can show my maths power. wahaha...! but everytime postponed and postponed. all his fault. idiot. :p we watched Transformer and Die Hard 4. Both also his fav lor. But i was alright with it la, cos they were both worth watching. excellent special effects. lol. good moral behind the stories. we watched from 3.15pm till 8pm. oh manz..wahaha! next time should try movie marathon. lol. oh yah!! tml's my interview in Alexandra hospital. im sooo excited and nervous. better do some studying for what I have studied in school before. cos the job is related to what i had been studying. (biomedical electronics engineering).....im gonna be an engineering assistant in biomedical engineering department. yeah! hmmms...jia you me! hahaha!hope i can walk thru the interview. wahaha! *prays hard*
Labels: vball and miss my dear dear
It's Glitz 2007 today!!! haha.
Woke up and did my housework as usual, with a special duty, vacuumed the floor and mopped it. Wow..so clean now. Lol.
Went to bathe and then got ready for Glitz night, which took place in school, TRCC. sianz..school again. I was nominated for the Best Captain of the year! oh my! I know I wont get anything, cos im kinda useless captain. Lol. I know it one. but anyway, i din carry much hope for that. Another great thing is, our female team was nominated for the best team of the year. and lastly, I've got Meritorious Silver award again! 3 consecutives years already! yeah! LOL. 3 stars plaque! haha. Well anyway, the event was alright. haha..as expected, no best captain award. and sad thing was no best team award for us. haiz..after that we went to UK funfair at woodlands there, I was dying to ride the ferris wheel. so excited manz..but then I saw the sky-rider!! arghhh!! I wanna sit that...arghh! LOL. but too bad, I wore skirt so cannot le...haiz..i miss the sports tour when we went to genting, we took a total of 8 rides. some ppl almost vomitted. hahaha..stupid. I really like the sky ride. so thrilling. too bad, got to make a do with ferris wheel. no choice. stupid skirt. maybe next time then go and try the sky ride. lol.
I came back home and told ah dar abt the ferris wheel thingy. he almost turn me upside down, not cos he dun let me play, it's cos i played with my vball guys frens. and i told him got gal. sihui was there. he still doesnt want to trust me about having guys around. i dunno why he reacted so badly abt me spending such times like that with guys. just bcos im too 'hao wan' doesnt mean i behave flirtatuously with my these groups of frens. Yes. i know im playful. I play like kids. They are my frens, the close frens i have. bcos we are from a sport team, our relationships were all built from our spirits of unity and stupidity. since sometimes im kinda tomboy, so i could just hang out with guys. but when i have ah dar i know my limits ah..i did not ever go out one on one or one whole group with only guys already. I have kept my distance further already until i was seen like a person who care for bf only and no longer frens anymore.. but i will also prioritise my duty as a gf and frens ah. Im wanna have a balanced life. ah dar always says that i never played enough, what does he mean? play with life? or play with guys? i doubt i enjoy being a slut. lol. i assured him before about my commitment in the relationship. im doing wat my conscience lead me to. if he continue to doubt me, he obviously doesnt trust my conscience. i will not tolerate this thing. im not threatening this kind of thing, but in a relationship, we've got to trust each other for who WE ARE. dont look back into the past and think that the current situation would be the same as before. i know that ah dar was hurt b4, of cos im not gonna repeat that kind of thing to him, it was too harsh and hurtful. only a bitch would do such thing. i dun believe i love doing that. im a person who detest living in guilt. guilt and pride are very impt to me. i wont be just any stupid human who only follows what the heart brings u, to love somebody else and forsake ur own, cos u find him better than urs. does that feel great? i doubt so. for some gals out there. maybe yes. cos u are never satisfied. i admit that im a person who is contented easily, a lot of ppl do think likewise.
well..stop making things draggy here...time will tell..but one's must really live to see the reality. grow up and understand why everyone has different thinking.
i just hope that he can trust me.
Welcome me back again:) Labels: sianz with life
hmm...it had been a really long time since i last updated my entries. It has been dead all these whiles. haiz..
im sick of boredom now. super sick. staying at home and rot. Just a little, or so-called a big update here, I patched back my exbf. That is ah dar. A long story to say why. Maybe next time I shall then talk about it bahx...im so bored to the extent that I have to come back from my used-to-be busy life and now landed in a nothing-to-do life. I havent got a job. such a loser. haha. damn loser. and lousy. There are reasons why la. Luck, heck care attitude and timing and my status, as a thai. so hard to find a job. under a condition that im waiting for my application results of the universities. haiz...and getting a PR. my life's in a mess now. gotta wait and see whatever outcome come into my way, and then I can make the decisions.
i pray i can get into Nus. Ntu rejected me. *sadded* but nvm, i told myself not to give up. i can appeal for a place. Nus and smu have not given me any news. haiz. sianz. but whatever it is, i will still look for alternatives in leading my life. my aim of life is of cos, being a successful career woman, before settling down. I gotta be optimistic about what I wanna do. once a fall, shouldnt be a second fall, nor the third. i should have gotten enough of it.
hey my friends, do you find it hard to communicate with me? Do i have communication breakdown? But why does it happen with me and my bf? he always scolded me for not being able to hear me well, and whatever i said has no link and i speak too fast...arghhh..im so tired of it. I dunno what else to do. yea, i know that i have to improve in my articulation and think before i speak. of cos i will try to improve that. I cannot promise that I can do it, cos i sometimes may have forgotten it, and even be still talking like that without realising that u couldn't understand me. I cannot promise bcos i am actually silently trying, it's not that i don't wanna try. I don't wanna give empty promises, so I don't wanna say that I from now on wont talk like that. I know my english not that good..please be patient with me a bit. Im scared i will have a hard time switching my pace of talking. So my promise is underhand till i have made it, and wait till you realise it.
A quarrel a day really makes my day horrible throughout the whole day. haiz..sianz...
REFLECTION and aiming of lifehey blog.im here again after some time...hmm...this 'wu ding' song really triggers my head. but well...im heading towards my dream and goal. i wont be indulging in my useless thoughts. I just made myself think of them. cos i like to think. i enjoy it. i want to smile to myself when i think. but i failed to consider this thinking would sway my thoughts and made me into wild thinking. Thus, hurting myself, making myself down and inferior, making me feel worst and making life messy. Therefore now, I am somehow letting it go slowly. Suddenly I dont want to think so much already. I kept myself occupied. I feel as though as I changed again after another relationship. This time round as a whole, not for relationship alone, as in not affecting relationship, in which what changes they are I am applying it to the environment now. I am beginning to see reality more now. I dont care much about what people really think and dont really care about being the insignificant. I have whom I trust and love which is enough. I dont want to bother to please others who dont treasure me. I should be more than happy that I have friends and family whom care for me. I used to do that a lot to many people. I dont reject favours from people and always be around for people. Are those pisces personalities for real? Like, I am a person with empathy for the surrounding people. Sometimes I wonder whether I can do it? Why am I always wanting to help people to the extend that I forsake my close ones? Maybe I do not know how to manage life properly? well..overall, I shall not conclude anything from them because I am still learning and finding out. I started to like my life now. I started to feel my life is going to be wonderful soon. I dont know why I feel that way. I feel as though I am lighter a lot. There's things I am settling with now. Like my school work...trying to study very hard for tests, trying to get good grades in class, being confident in talking and presentation. Just submitted my PP proposal and was approved already. Got to start doing report soon. Going to finish my CE points already. Left 4 more active points to go! and yeah! i will be done with it. FYP still on progress. Aiming for satisfying GPA so that I can go to a University, aiming for NUS, Arts and Social Science in which I think would be easier and a switch of interest now. wanna get a degree of Honour if possible. I wanna be a Career and independent woman of the 21st century!!!! woahahahohoho!!!Im sooo motivated to study now. I want to go UNI to achieve my dreams. I miss lecture lifestyle. haha.. thinking in terms of finance, i told my sis that I want to study...and talked to my sis about it..the school fees for one sem is $3,500 like that..in which i thought it was $6000 plus. scared me. well...should be okie bahx..she said should be okie to support, but den I was thinking, this time i wouldnt want to be a burden financially le. I WILL loan that amount of money for the 3 or 4years course to study. Till i graduated, I will work and pay back on monthly basis to them. In this way, I would feel better and not to let them down. I dont want to feel supported till i took it for granted. It must come from my hardwork so that I will do my very best. One thing is thought was, giving my sis and brother in law monthly 'allowance' like that. wahahaha!!! but she said that, from the way I am spending money now, she doubts that I would ever have the chance to pay them back. haha..from this, I know that they would never expect anything in return. All they want is....blah blah...i know what they are le..hahaha...well..i will just do my job as a "student" and make them proud. LOL.Wooohhh~~ I want to have good grades and further my studies and get high paying jobs.[dreams] *sign off with motivation spirits*
*staying happy-go-lucky
*freedom
*get into a Uni
*PR
*good paying job
*a new hair-do/image
*changes of contents in my wardrobe
*new sets of shoes/cosmetics
*perfumes
*skin care products
*being a teacher/engineering assist/SUCCESSFUL career woman
*independence
*CAR LISENSE
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