*12.12am*
Thursday's entry:
Today I decided not to go online, wanted to have a break from MSN. If not i just couldn't blog peacefully, meaning that I need some
deep thoughts without being disturbed...hehe...was so lazy to blog recently. Now I'm just relaxing, sitting on my bed and write...feels
so good right now...hehe~ just had my super late dinner, and now feels quite bloated. Just now hasn't really feel tired, now starts to
feel tired already..hehe....aiya...it's like that bahx...listening to songs again....haha...keep listening to the song "wo de cuo" by B.A.D
...it sounds to nice and sad...i went to search for its lyrics and found that the meaning was great!hehe..hmmm niceeee song!hehe...
now i am trying to sing and "bei" it...hehe...haizz....finally i chose to write today, wanted to write for so long, but lazy until find no time to do so....hehe....guess a lot have gone
thru my mind and think a lot some time back...a lot of doubts and uncertainties keep replaying in my mind...at times surge of fear just
came to me...sometimes just a lot of things which i would say i lazy to think about it that came to my mind. It was no wonder why
some time back, i was wondering what are the 'missing' things or expressions that i wanted to say in my msn nick. Perhaps now I
know....haha....hmmm...but things just happened too fast..or changed fast...now i also don't really know what i feel like...haha..but
cos it's positive to some extent..hehe...perhaps i put off some load in my mind...feels lots lighter and lighter as time goes by. Perhaps
I am willing to let go what i shouldn't have yearnt for. Perhaps I shouldn't force my feelings to believe in things that i shouldn't have
...I also realised something about myself as time goes by as happenings emerge out of nowhere, which may be a learning experience
for me, because of whatever I have encountered, my 'change' has somehow surfaced, and I realised that I am able to see it myself
too. I hope my judgements are right....Maybe i can say some changes that I believed I have discovered? hmm...I think i am not as
vulnerable as I used to be, to some extent? Able to forget and move on if proper ways of counselling are useful to me? I can listen
and see from experiences. I do learn from others as well...haha...hmm...well...i think that I am more than myself for the past few days
...think my madness has become worse...hehe....hmm...also think those madness made me forget many things. Let me ask myself, is
my madness my true self? hahahahhaha...den i can go woodbridge le la...haha...I also don't know why...suddenly life is like a new
start for me...haha..oh yah....suddenly realised 2 ppl have said i have become fiercer these few days...ke siao....haha..maybe? hehe..
hmm...that day, when i just came back to my sit and xiaoxin's leg was blocking my leg, den i kicked his leg lightly(or hard? hu noes?)
and i said "ni de jiao zhou kai la!" he almost cried! haha..no la, more of a shock..haha..basically he just said...i become fiercer these
few days...haha...now then i realised that too...haha...well...maybe i became more violent le....*scary*...haha...but of cos not sad...life
has been cheerful and crazy for me too..I do enjoy that at times...haha...Oh no! i must be mad again...hehe...really 'shenjingbing' is
back!!!haha....
*staying happy-go-lucky
*freedom
*get into a Uni
*PR
*good paying job
*a new hair-do/image
*changes of contents in my wardrobe
*new sets of shoes/cosmetics
*perfumes
*skin care products
*being a teacher/engineering assist/SUCCESSFUL career woman
*independence
*CAR LISENSE
`25 `02 `1986
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