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Friday, December 31, 2004 @ 12/31/2004 05:59:00 PM

=seeking for freedom= WhOooOo~~~ Finally blog again....hehe...today's new year eve....no plans for today..sigh...sadded lor...sistas asked me to go for BBQ....New Year count down...i couldn't go! cos sis suddenly become so strict on me...due to some reasons besides going out too often these days.... sadded man~....getting lack of freedom le...my end of year 2004 is LACK of freedom...*sob=sobs* Can I request for more freedom please?!?! well...what to do...I truely understand the situation i am in.....WHO am I anyway? I have no parents here.....JUST my guardians...so can't expect too much...just got to be contented for what i have so far bahx..well..well...life's gotta be that way bahx...gotta learn to be sensible....gotta learn to THINK more...but at times i am not sensible enough cos i still got angry over this....hmmmpppff! wahaha~

=REFLECTIONS FOR THE YEAR>>>RESOLUTION FOR NEW YEAR=

===Changes in ME=== Hmmm...what's my year 2005 resolution??? What do I aim for? What do I want in life? well..there are lots lots to mention....every little thing that human wants in life....[to be happy] for many things......just to stay contented and look thru a new vision to aim for what u wanna achieve....hmmm.....it has been a YEAR since i truely see the changed in myself!! the changed which i did not expect! The changed that ppl had influenced me.....many little things here and there that i picked up along the way as I grow and experienced......well....it seemed just ONE year only.....but it also seem long, but it also sometimes seems short.... =FLash Back= I remembered after my O level last year....i have been spending my time idling...going out with friends..so-called enjoying life....rotting at home.....having many plans for the 6-months waiting for the results...many many many plans which i had made for myself..to explore singapore....to revise and lotsa self-improvement stuffs...but seemed like NONE was actually accomplished!!! HATE MYSELF!!! Thought that 6 months was a long period....but in a blink of the eye....it was gone...just gone like that.....i cannot bring back the time...too bad le lor..*sigh*.. =Changes= In February I got to know Eunice Lim thru Thai Chat Box....den added her in MSN....made friends with her.....she's a year my senior, from NP....then we became really good good friend....like a true friend to me...a really GREAT fren...and never regret knowing her...from THEN ON, my life started to change as I chatted online with her almost everyday.....I realised many many things in life....I started to change in thinking as well...I started express myself better...I started to become confident of myself....I can talk openly with people...I started to become cheerful and chatty when I meet friends and even new people...Guess how much have i changed over the months? wahaha..besides knowing Eunice who had greatly helped me...my life in the new environment and the systems such as in RP made me change as well....and a lot of little things here and there i picked along the way..be it experiences or what i have learnt....simply mould me into someone....someone...hmmm...[hard to say]..i believe they are all good changes... =Who Am I? well... first of all...what can i say about myself when i was in sec school..just the time before my changes.....hmm...I guess I was more quiet then now...will be talkative when i wanna be...but now everything also kinda shoot! wahaha....super shy, even more 'humji' and super childish then now..maybe i used to hang aound with friends 1 year younger den me? so try to be too much of childish..in the end up too MUCH more den them? wahahah...rubbish la........now more daring and not so shy...was mad also...but not much as now...not as cheerful as now...not as lame as now...not as blunt and straight-forward as now...not as open as now....not as optimistic as now....was resistant to changes, but now ready to take challenges in changes....not as observant as now....NOT AS doesn't mean DON'T have! wahaha....but just a big gap now....and I think I have turn some of my weaknesses to be something better....haha...and i think still have a lot more to say....I guess I can see these changes as i experienced each events..be it good or bad...it always has an impact on me....to certain extent bahx....I believe I have learnt many things in life for the past months...moulding me into someone sure and confident of myself...as well as the challenges in life in the future....I find that I always have the "believe" in many things now....I am happy for myself....wahahaha....for now I still believe that my next stage in life will have more changes in these areas again....it just depends on the percentage of how much I have moved to the next stage that's all....I have got to see that myself again....wahaha.... =New year resolution= hmm....I wanna have a new vision for next year[2005]...wanna have confidence in many things...bold and daring....be someone who can be proud of myself!!! wahahaha..what a wishful thinking...nvm..i have my wishing star...MOST importantly, studies come first...Vball and then my happiness....wanna lead a SIMPLE and cheerful life no matter what.....have faith my life....despite all the happenings these few years...be it the SARS, 911, Bird Flu and the recent tragedy of the Tsunami....sigh..it was really a shocking thing in life to see these happenings in the world....is the world coming to an end soon? Are these signs of the new world is reborning soon? haiz...well......let nature takes its place....but hopefully humans can live without regrets... =JUST BE CONTENTED FOR WHAT YOU HAVE =D

// the peaceful night sky

- leave me alone.. i want some peace.. -

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Tuesday, December 28, 2004 @ 12/28/2004 10:49:00 PM

=TOtallY Pissed oFF= Idiotic!!!! Im totally PISSED off by somebody today!!!!!! Who ne???? OF cos my "DEAR" coach BK....hur! BurgerKing!..BurgerKing!..BurgerKing!.dunno who gave him this nick....well it suits him...wahha...anyway..hack care la..Stupid Stupid!!! Im damn Pissed off today!! YOu Really RUINed my day.....everything...u, me... has gone over the limits le....I'm gonna explode le!!!! hmm..wat can i say??? Well...today i was just so happy and mad as per normal..maybe not so normal la...MORE crazy bahx...haizyo...den i did some stupid things la...haiz....i was looking forward to this training days after days since last Thursday lor...and now it was NOTHING!!! nothing..and just nothing!!! just went there for the stupid gym and WASTED my time! as well as my MOOD!!!=sickening= arghhhhhhhhh....!!!!!!!!!!....feel like screaming!! SICK SICK!!!! What happened was....i was just playing with the 'marker'(stick)....and duno wat he said to me or wat lor...den i just said "wanna fight huh?" wahhhhh!!!!! i just say for FUN de!! =joking tone= and he told me to do 30 pumpings...idiotic!!! and i stubbornly say dun want....and he kept increasing to 60....IDIOT!!!! stupid!!! in the mist of that i went to toilet and do some " business" lor....i came out and he told me to do....wahhh!!!....at first i WASN'T angry at all lor...do den do lor...but still unsure of the actual reason... BUT....after my 60 pumpings he asked me why i need that punishment...I kept guessing and guessing...even came up with some possible reasons that i have offended him in any way...but NONE was accepted!!! wahhhh Pengzzz..!!! Guess correct also still must do 10 more, guess wrong must do 30 more.......=thanks for being reasonable huh?= He thinks I'm so easy to be ordered around bahx...and think i won't be angry de hor? Test my patience huh? You dunno one point about me...I can be PETTY as well k!! Maybe u activate the BOMB in me!! =made me almost explode= actually i almost wanna cry just now.....but crying is just a disgrace and bu zhi de...just nice shiwen asked me to go West Mall with her...and I DECIDED to go off early as well...I dun wanna see him!!! I just walked off without guessing finished...and without doing my the other punishments for guessing wrongly....so I LEFT!!!!hur!!!! or else i might just get even more pissed off and cry ah...oh man~ so weak!! =can feel my eyes a bit teary le...feeling hot in my face....so i just looked away....and faster wanna leave that place....den... den i think BK saw a bit of my expression changed..den he nv say anything le...he just went off to the toilet....wahhhh!!! i can't believe that I vent such an anger on him!!! I damn angry lor....ruined my day = my mood =my spirit for the day!!!! making me almost gone over my limits =making me almost explode..probably i haven't explode for so long le..that's why now explode..wahaha~ I just left early lor...actually wanna continue staying on to play de...=dying to play=....but sad thing is, it has been raining the whole day.....but after that NO NO NO mood to stay on le....maybe some of them also shocked why I left so early cos usually i will wanna stay on de....that's why meiwei just asked me why i left so fast....*sigh...* sorry ya....i also wanna play de....just pissed off that's all....I'm getting sick of the way he punished us this way...it seemed so UNREASONABLE...it's more this torment issshhh his pleasure!!!! eeeyerrr!!! =sick sick= angry=angry=seems like it's the first time i'm angry until like that with somebody after sooo long....think my temper very good huh? test it? wahhahaha....everyone has his/her own limits de....u once guessed it rite too that i can explode right? and now u see it mah?....haha.... well..for now i guess i just have to wait till thursday to play to my heart's content.... sighhhh.........went off so early...like 7 plus? i kept babbling and complaining to Angela and Shiwen from sch until Redhill MRT until they 'buay tahan' me....haha..but after that they noticed that i became quiet le..den they guessed i thinking of revenge le!!!! wahahhaha..... well....accompany shiwen to West Mall cos she wanna buy something...we walked around bahx...and she couldn't find the things she want...den went to Lot 1 and found it!! we just shopped around bahx...i also bought something as well bahx...think today spent quite a lot le...hopefully i dun overspent....otherwise will become broke again.... aiya......I dun wanna further BLOG le...sianz with my mood today!!! IM SUPER duper angry!!! I'm gonna be mad!!! anyway...not worth to get so angry de rite? haha...well...i will de....don't worry i will forget very fast de...and moodswing very fast de.....went shopping until forgot le....well...now blogging abt him must write angry angry de!! hmmppfff!!!

// the peaceful night sky

- leave me alone.. i want some peace.. -

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Monday, December 27, 2004 @ 12/27/2004 10:49:00 PM

WOhOohoO~~ tml VbALl tRaInInG....Im happy happy happy...*diao* =mad=

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=Lazy to blog de..but suddenly talk abt vball!! wahaha~= hehe..recently kinda lazy to write leh..hehe...dunno wat to write about!!! Yeah!! tml vball training le...after waiting for sooo long....yuppie! hehe....hmm....oh yah man~ BK said i played vball with no fighting spirit de...haha.....oh yah la! i knew that! i realised it long ago! haha.... only have the play play spirit..happy playing spirit only..unless under some circumstances den i may have fighting spirit la..haha....hmmm...wat can i say now...actually i was kinda cannot believe my ears when he said he saw that i am the most serious player....but den hor...i still feel bad la...dunno how to describe the feeling bahx.....i thought he said we ALL not serious de...that day he purposely caught me for stepping on the line de when serving the ball(cai xian)....but i have nv get caught for that b4!!! so i think it was impossible!!! and i'm right!! haha...he purposely made me pressurize de....haiz....[hai wo dan xin man~] what a ''''sianzation'''day~ =saying for the day= [Finally i have learnt something...about myself...about things in life....about many many many things......finally i am brave for once...not for once la....for again and again...i am happy and proud of myself! wahaha...i am sure and confident of myself..yeah!!! i can see myself!!! i can sense things...be it in front of me or wherever...haha]

// the peaceful night sky

- leave me alone.. i want some peace.. -

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Saturday, December 25, 2004 @ 12/25/2004 11:30:00 PM

haha...I learnt 2 phrases of German today!haaaa! [I love you = Ich Liebe Dich] [I miss you = Ich Vermisse Dich]

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=Pizza!!!= Harlo Kizzy.....*burp*wahaha~ just had home-made pizza for dinner and drinking coca cola now...haha...have not made pizza since so long...whenever we made pizzas for dinner....so tired one....keep standing and hardly can sit...cos i did most of the things..wahaha..felt good to make pizza...yummy~ my sis only made the tomato paste and moulding the flour...and baking it! wahaha..actually quite fun to make de..but must prepare so many things...by the time i cleaned the kitchen it was about 10pm liao...hmm...my cousin (can be called as my auntie lor..hehe) and her family came over for dinner...my plan for diet is....just=like that= lor....wahaha~no change at all...eat after eat....yesterday steamboat...today pizza....but dunno why ate two pieces full liao...i was expecting myself to eat more since once in a while den make pizza....maybe as i baked, i smelt the food then full liao hor? haha....i guess sistas are missing our pizzas...wahaha....maybe next time my birthday they can come eat again lor....just thinking only ah....haha... haaa~ hmm...these few days Capt. Horst(my brother-in-law's ex-colleage from Germany) has been putting up at our house again...making the house more 're nao'..haha...a very good fren of ours.....haha...he everyday also drinks Tiger Beer de...everytime makes me go buy de...so paiseh... =Yesterday= Christmas eve hmm....shan't talk much about yesterday la...went to eat steamboat at Gary's house...was not in the mood to go at first...cos i almost like 'fan lian' with my sis....giving her black-faced lor...dunno why la...just many things bahx...shall not talk about it bahx...but after that meifong cheered me up and somehow 'por' me go gary's house...and then i just go lor....got persuaded by her....mood still ok ok lor...maybe mood swing after that..haha.....aiya...just had a feeling of a blue Christmas Eve.... hmm....okie bahx...gtg watch Saturday night movie le.....the para para dance one!!! haha..watch it again bahx..the song isssh nice mah....

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=M3RRy ChRIsTmaS= =D Kizzy and Everyone.....I miss u all~ wahaha~ Wishing everybody a happy happy merry merry christmas....and the coming Blessing new Year!!!!

// the peaceful night sky

- leave me alone.. i want some peace.. -

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Thursday, December 23, 2004 @ 12/23/2004 11:59:00 PM

=What I am writing man~? can't think of title~ brain blocked!= haiz.....just feeling tired...lazy to blog these few days.....Christmas is coming and don't know what plans i have....initially wanna go out with family to orchard...but den dunno also...not going le..sadded*...nvm bahx....just gonna exchange christmas presents with sistas... anyway i also dun celebrate Christmas....haha... =Tired= tired=....online till quite late these few days...chatting, surfing net for fun! and helping ppl in something..in the end making myself tired..hehe..anyway...i felt so happy and contented abt it =helping people about something...wahaha~ guess wat? about relationship stuffs which i have never really accomplished as a good advisor...but now i think i did!! whohoho~~ So happy until cannot sleep! ~ okie la..dun wanna write le....sianz...and tired..and lazy....gonna control my diet these few days le.... byebye my sweet Kizzy~ hehe~*diao*

// the peaceful night sky

- leave me alone.. i want some peace.. -

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Wednesday, December 22, 2004 @ 12/22/2004 11:48:00 PM

Lessons in Logic [If your father is a poor man, it is your fate but, if your father-in-law is a poor man, it's your stupidity] [Practice makes perfect..... But nobody's perfect...... so why practice?] [If it's true that we are here to help others, then what exactly are the others here for?] [Since light travels faster than sound, people appear bright until you hear them speak.] [How come "abbreviated" is such a long word?] [Money is not everything. There's Mastercard & Visa.] [One should love animals. They are so tasty. ] [Every man should marry. After all, happiness is not the only thing in life. ] [The wise never marry. and when they marry they become otherwise. ] [Success is a relative term. It brings so many relatives. ] [Never put off the work till tomorrow what you can put off today. ] ["Your future depends on your dreams" So go to sleep] [There should be a better way to start a day Than waking up every morning ] ["Hard work never killed anybody" But why take the risk ] ["Work fascinates me" I can look at it for hours ] [God made relatives; Thank God we can choose our friends.] [The more you learn, the more you know, The more you know, the more you forget ,the less you know. So.. why learn.] [A bus station is where a bus stops. A train station is where a train stops. On my desk, I have a work station.... what more can I say........]

// the peaceful night sky

- leave me alone.. i want some peace.. -

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Monday, December 20, 2004 @ 12/20/2004 10:40:00 PM

=Celebrating CuiYun's Birthday= HaPpY BirThday to CUIYUN (xiaomei)..... happy happy sweet sweet17th birthday....dajie 'lao' liao...going 19 le..hehe.... Yeah! today went out with sistas[ only me -CuiYun-Peishan- Shiling] to celebrate CuiYun's birthday....went to eat Buffet at Kuishin-Bo in Suntec City....wahhh! damn Exp! going broke again lor....birthday cake as well..hehe...and I gonnna FAT FAT le la....eat like pig!!!!!SUPER fat pig!!! die die.....my dieting will start again tml....phloy, try ok? I ate soooo much recently and oh no~ DongJi also tml man~ sure will eat "tang yuan" de....alamak! die for sure.....okie..from now on after vball training i don't wanna have late dinner le unless i'm super hungry bahx..hehe.... Today we kept eating and eating....me also same la....ate for a while full le...then must have breaks in between..oh man~i ate so much cheese cakes also....super niceeee...yummy~~~hehe......crazy me!! ate until all other customers left...except for the few of us...hehe....hmm..after that we just went to Esplanade and sat there and chit chat...so tired after walking for so long..damn sian....dunno what they wanna do... Around 6pm like that then we went to look for xinmei at Bishan cos she worked there....in the end she din go to work....hmmm...there goes another sistas conflict le.......haizzzz....... Walked around in Junction8 and bought cake for Cuiyun.... After that just went home!!! and my brother-in-law bought "THE SISTERS" VCD...hahaha....then i watched it again!!! - halfway only...hehe... Hmm..yesterday...doing nothing much...just went cycling and played badminton in the evening....and came back, ate sumptious dinner again!!!! fat fat....Cos got guest mah...haha....

// the peaceful night sky

- leave me alone.. i want some peace.. -

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Saturday, December 18, 2004 @ 12/18/2004 10:39:00 PM

=Eat and Eat= ***BoOo~I'm bloated NOW!!! My diEt is not successful bahx....haizyo...why must my sis cook such a sumptious meal everytime...whenever I wanna have a light meal, but in the end I ate and ate till I'm satisfied!haha...I realised that I LOVE to eat! haha..oh man~ die le me...guess I'm gaining weights again...I don't mean to be very particular or vain about my appearance bahx...it's just the feeling of being bloated and 'tight' in my fresh is making me feel damn uneasy and i am feeling lazier as well...furthermore, it means that my pants and jeans can't fit me!!! I have to get back my original weight so I can wear back my clothes...haha...oh~ i have no money to buy new sets of bigger sized clothes k! haha...just ate chocolate cookies....just couldn't resist temptation...=*HATE MYSELF*= Phloy, YOu are going to get Diabetes soon ah! whaha~ =Lazy lazy=Memories= See lor...I'm a freaking lazy today....forcing myself to do housework lazily...lazier den usual....so in the end never wrap plastic covers for my nephews' books...just cut the plastic covers only....leave it there....haha... nahhhhhhhhh~~~ hmmm...haha....funny me= finding for christmas cards...and found my old letters and cards...took out to read....i just love reading into the memories stuffs....haha.... =Can Sleep again= oh yah!!! Last night i could sleep le!!! my temporary syndrome was gone....can fall asleep a few mins after i went to bed.....i guess cos i found my Chong er fei? haha....shenjingbing la...haha....but now i changed the song again cos i find this song also nice lor.... =Xiaomei's Birthday this coming Monday= Oh yeah...Cui Yun..my xiaomei's birthday is on this Monday....got to go and celebrate with sistas again!hehe...hopefully it's a happy happy birthday celebration...hehe.....~~Dajie misses you~~ =Saying for the day= [I am willing to persue my happiness and live my life to the fullest. I will not brood over unhappy pasts. +Will stay HAPPY =Happiness is a recipe to a great success=]

// the peaceful night sky

hmmm???? Is this SONG nicER or my Chong Er Fei? hahaha....suddenly got the urge to change and change songs..hehe...nvm..see how first bahx....hehe....

// the peaceful night sky

- leave me alone.. i want some peace.. -

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Friday, December 17, 2004 @ 12/17/2004 09:25:00 PM

=So happy=Found Chong Er Fei into Blog= Wahaha!!!! so happyyyyyyy today!!! Found a new blogskin!! and the song "Chong Er Fei" for my blog! Let my Kizzy listen too!Wahahaha!!!! so happy-happy- happy!!!*muackx muackx* Feel like jumping around...I thought can't find forever~ haha...tian zu wo ye~[heaven's by my side] hmm..but it's not as nice as the original singing one leh...this one is just the music alone....nvm....use this song until bored first then change..hehe.... hmm...today ah....doing the same thing at home bahx...writing names in my nephews' new books...i guess tomorrow have to wrap them up in plactic cover le...argh~ so lazy..... today kept editing and editing my template for my blog...actually it look easy..but actually have to do a lot of C# stuffs bahx..haiz....do until my shoulder blades 'wear out'..damn pain now....haha...still need to do more editing again..haven't finish it yet...... Oh man~ don't know why these few days can't get to sleep at night...feeling tired BUT just couldn't fall asleep...have been lying on the bed for some time before i could doze off....closed my eyes yet never go to my =lala= land...haha...like last night, tired after vball training, but just laid on the bed with my eyes closed for about 1 hr i guess? but just didn't sleep!! oh my gosh!!! what is happening? Don't tell me i have insomia ah? haha....unlikely bahx....this is maybe once in while bahx....hmm...when i couldn't get to sleep...my mind was filled with vball stuffs.....so mad about vball le hor? haha...that's crazy me!

// the peaceful night sky

- leave me alone.. i want some peace.. -

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Wednesday, December 15, 2004 @ 12/15/2004 11:31:00 PM

=D hmm..today ah....woke up quite late bahx....supposed to have my punishment at 9.30am mah....but in the end i woke up at 11am....wheee~anyway my sis also didn't scold me..hehe...cos i think she knew i am tired after my vball training bahx...hee! well...well..today did my housework halfway and my sis asked me to go to Yew Tee market to buy some stuffs......it has been ages since i went to the market..i dread going...kinda smelly....hmm..but no choice lor...and it has been ages since i last went to Yew Tee...(where my sec sch was).....took Bus 307 past it....haha....well...byebye UNITY...haha...=) After that.....online and blogging....chatting...and trying to find the songs for blog.....and...think think...and...hmm....don't know la...haha....then around 5.45pm went to shiwen's house since I wanna watch the last episode of the show "Ye Man Qing Jia"..yeah!!!! hahaha....hmm...firstly just watched " Xi Ling Men 2"...after that then watched " Ye Man Qing Jia" ....brought my laptop along so not so bored....good thing her house have wireless connection...hehe....hmm....shiwen and her mum kept tempting me to eat lor...I still in the progress of dieting lor.....hehe....don't feel like eating much dinner....hehe... hmm....just walked home after that....left her house about 9.30pm bahx...den walked for half an hour from half a stop of one MRT station...oh man~ I dread walking so far....must cross overhead bridge of the expressway man......some more with my muscle ache..walked damn slow....strolling~haha....So lazy to walk back..... oh yah...my old ankle injury still hurts at times now..sighhhhh.....yesterday vball training almost fell again...and luckily Angela held onto me...but don't think there will be a hard landing bahx....but think it still hurts abit now....how man~ din expect that injury from that time was so serious....like not completely recovered yet.....always constantly fear the feeling of falling with such landing on ankle....always imagine the scene of it.....=arghhh=...... I am still listening to the song "Chong Er Fei" =Am-I-Mad?= well......I love it! haaah~ =D

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Tuesday Went to IT helpdesk earlier than the usual vball training time...supposed to be starting at 4pm....but must report at 3.30pm....I reached there at 3pm....IT Helpdesk for help....and they solved it within 20 mins?...hmm..that was quite fast isn't it? So happy that it was ok....but have to spend time sorting out things in the laptop again...do some editing again...since they created a new profile for me...said that my old one was corrupted....sounds scary....so it was somehow reformatted? but the documents are not lost la...haha.... Was so happy that we have our training after last week.....so bored without playing vball...haha...simply miss it bahx..hehe.... hmm....shiwen reached at 4pm...maybe that was considered late....since BK wanted us to prepared everything by 4pm....but shiwen also had a valid reason as to why she was late...anyway...i was not sure whether that was the reason why we had to do 100 squats......so now my muscles aching again...but not as bad as that time....hmm..the training wasn't bad bahx....I wanted to play more...so I stayed back with some of them to play on....hehe...FUN!!! hehe....how i wish we can play everyday....but it would be too tiring bahx.... well....shiwen's mood syndrome acted up again...sigh....don't know why can't she just forget about it in court and play happily.....haha.....that's was why when i played with her we almost quarrelled....seeing her mood like that also kinda gave me stress to play....so...my ball was like... anyhow fly de...and she just somehow shouted at me!!! I was so shocked!!I was also already pissed off enough with her mood syndrome and she's still vent her frustration on me..not fAIR!!! And that added to my anger....and i realised that I somehow argued with her as well since I am also not happy liao..finally i'm brave for once..hehe....den den....after that, somehow i felt my face expression just changed! and I don't wanna look into her face while i was playing...i was not laughing and smiling at all while i was kinda angry at that moment....I don't know whether she realised that or not....but somehow i just think she did bahx...haha.....but somehow...sometime....her happy mood is back.....at first, i was thinking how am I going to survive thru this training with my 'black' face to her thru out the training....but after that.....we just talked as normal...i don't know why too....just told myself to forget it bahx....funny thing was, her mood changed so fast! whaha~ Hmm....i only have bread for lunch today...I wanna =diet!!!haha.....alamak!!! Shiwen and Jasminte announced my success of gaining weight!!! oh man~ so PAISEH!!! Yeah!!! BK said I got the "FEeLing" in playing the C ball liao!! wat feeling ne? Sense of C ball? haha...Getting smoother liao... So happy!!! hehe....but my short ball still like shit....so now he told me to concentrate on my C ball first whereas shiwen have to concentrate on her short ball...funny ah? haha.... yeah!!! can go shiwen's house to watch the last episode of the "Ye man qing jia" le.....she has recorded it!!!!haha....

// the peaceful night sky

- leave me alone.. i want some peace.. -

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Tuesday, December 14, 2004 @ 12/14/2004 01:02:00 PM

=wanna compose song?= I'm trying to compose a song!haha...dunno why all of sudden wanna do that! Keep singing to myself with my own lyrics!! whahaha~ I must be mad..... I finally find meanings of lyrics meaningful now....I finally see why.....it's more than melody..... And now i find the joy of writing.....wanna blog and blog...and tell Kizzy everything...hehe.. =D =Reflection= [hee~seems like i'm constantly reminded of the past....whatever the past are....esp. when I listen to THIS song.....until NOW....I still listen to it.....*MAD* I find that I am stubborn...I still hold on to my past....Still can't let go at the moment...I wanna let go, YET i am just be reminded once more....I wanna forget.....but I just can't.....*confusion state*....I don't wanna be reminded...I wanna leave that out....I don't wanna see it again....wanna go away from it...I wanna run away....I wanna leave that environment so that I can peacefully forget it......but there's no way i can leave that environment....the environment is fixed.... the feeling is still haunting me....I don't wanna be haunted every now and then...I wanna find my way of happiness..... arghh!!~~I guess i am just too stubborn to be thinking of it.....thinking of it won't solve anything....just making me feel worse..... I feel that I am opened enough to say all these now....that's one thing i realised about myself....i don't care what people think le....I just wanna be who i should be....just be happy for who you are...YOURSELF...]

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Aiya..wanna publish Chong Er Fei lyrics de...but cannot...so too bad.....will write han yu pin yin here instead...haha... CHONG ER FEI hei hei de tian kong di chui liang liang de fan xing xiang shuai chong er fei chong er fei ni zai si nian shui tian shang de xing xing liu lei di shang de mei gui ku wei leng feng chui leng feng chui zhi yao you ni pei chong er fei hua er shuai yi shuang you yi dui chai mei bu pa tian hei zhi pa xin shui bu guan lei bu lei ye bu guan dong nan xi bei

=translated into han yu pin yin by Phloy=hahaha

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- leave me alone.. i want some peace.. -

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Monday, December 13, 2004 @ 12/13/2004 08:57:00 PM

=Boring Day=Rotting at home= Hmm....haha...u noe wat? today i vacuumed the floor and it accidentally hit the leg of the table!!! whoahahahahaha~~~so happy!!! Finally got my revenge le!!! who tell you to hurt me?whaha~ hoho~~~hoho~~~....I evil hor? well....hmm....today i don't know what i am doing.....hmm....just online.....editing my blog...reading past entries...so nice to re-read it again....haha....using my com almost the whole day....rotting away..... After that i went to buy something nearby. I wore the slippers that my sis bought for me recently and i have got blister on my foot. And guess wat...?My blister in my foot just burst...bcos i did something to it....hehe..itchy hands la...haiz.. den got some dificulties walking back.....now so pain....nvm..it's just a small matter...i only made it sound serious....hehe...that's my style! haha.....but oh! not everythingggg....haha.... =I Love Chong Er Fei= I have been listening to the song " Chong Er Fei" by Ekin Cheng....WOw~~~nice nice nice nice nice......the best song i ever listen bahx...i think...hehehe.... =I REALLY LOVE IT=..the whole day keep listening to this song......the feeling isshhhhh so nice.....i feel like flying~~~hee=)I like the sweetness of the song and its melody...and its heavenly tune......not really bcos of it lyrics...haha...... and feeling sad =( I wanna cry...but no tears coming out......haha..=*mad*= I wanna find the music codes for this song so that i can put it into my blog!!!! HOW???? can somebody help me???? I want it so badly....more than any song...hoho~~ im kinda mad abt this song.....Where to find it ne? =wasted...cannot watch the last episode of the show= Sighh...wasted again...can't get to watch the last episode of " ye man qing jia" tmr.....bcos of vball training....hahaha...by the way, i can't wait for tml's training..haven't been touching vball since last thursday....i miss it !! haha.... =saying for the day= [Openess][No worries=)] =Realise 'the' difference again...no FEAR! = bold = lalalalala~~~~

// the peaceful night sky

- leave me alone.. i want some peace.. -

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Sunday, December 12, 2004 @ 12/12/2004 06:13:00 PM

=Clumsiness AgaIn= Kizzy kizzy..................I'm sadddd....I'm sadddd....I'm sad, ok? ***sOb soB*** GuesS wAt? I Just kiCked the eDge of the cupboard...*gives myself a slap* hahaha~ damN paiN agaiN!~ though the impact wasn't hard....BUT the pain jusT caMe, from just that day....SIghhhhh**** =I SIMPLY HATE MYSELF= hurh!!!!! argh! Is my clumsiness so-called my forte?!?! =Scolding= *sob sob* Kizzy kizzy..........I'm sad again =( whuaaaaa!!!!!! =[ got a scolding today!!!! woke up late!!! WOke up at 1pm!!! she called me to wake up since 10plus...but i went back to sleep!!! hurrrrr =( this is the latest time sleeping at home for so late....got scolding!~ sadded= guilty=heads down= so....i just faster did my usual housework silently and dared not look into my sis' eyes....she angryAngrY!!!!! well.....i did more than expected today...I mopped the floor, ironed my brother-in-law's clothes since he's going Indonesia tml...cleaned up the study room.....cleared away old books.....getting ready to move in the computer from the living room to there....haha...so next time I can use laptop in the study room...more peaceful=) more privacy=) less messy =) hehe..... so..after I did all these....my sis also never say much le....phewwww~ hehe....BUT>>> from now on she's making me to wake up 9.30am everyday...a new RULE for me!!!! oh!!! I think I have gone over the limits, that's why she have to do this!= Serve me right! hahaha!!! oh well...sorry about that.....I know you have been telling me for time again and again..but i'm just being too stubborn....... =Saying for the day= [There ARe Many UnCerTainTies In Life...LoOk for New MeAnIng In EvEry EvenTs~] heeeeee~~~

// the peaceful night sky

- leave me alone.. i want some peace.. -

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Saturday, December 11, 2004 @ 12/11/2004 10:55:00 PM

=Something to Learn From= [=If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart. =If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him/her, feel honored that love came and called at your door but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage, do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how you deal with yourself, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different. =If you fall in love with another, and he/she falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame, let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time. Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in anyway you can. There is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them. The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away. =Remember this, and keep it to your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into saying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and always will be a mystery. Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life. "If you want to be happy, be."]

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=Went to get 2 DP CE pts= :] Hey KizzY!!! hehe =D hmmm.....today I went to Jurong Regional Library u noe? haha....guess what i went there for? I just went there to attend an Engineering Talk hosted by Dr Loke!!! Actually I just wanna get the CE points la...haha....but in fact the Talk was also quite interesting...I payed attention thru out the whole talk and learnt something as well...hehe....the trip wasn't wasted at all....got 2 DP points...hehe....I think...like xiaode and minghong said....must faster get as much CE points as possible now..or else yr 2 no time le...so next yr..i will to go for any talk if possible...haha...pathetic leh me.....so far got only a few DP points.....that's why I 'kan chiong' la....hahaha.....initially i signed up on my own de....if no one accompany me, then i will go alone lor...sad rite??? haha....but then I tried to ask CuiTing as well... and she asked other ppl as well....so in the end, =me, CuiTing and Catherine went today....hehe....we met up at 2.30pm at Jurong East Interchange.....when we reached the Library we saw Dr Loke and a lot of seats there...BUT not a single soul of audience was there yet!!!!! whaha~it was already 3pm!!! haha....pathetic Dr Loke! =( hehe....but nvm...u have got us!!!hehe.....after a while then have ppl coming in....some from other polys as well...the talk was not bad bahx....still can survive thru..heee~ After the talk, 3 of us went to walk around and then went to IMM walk walk too...there also nothing much de....just went there to eat.....wahhh!!! eat at 5pm!!?!?!? that was dinner or what??? haha! my sis still got cook for me man~ We went to walk around at Daiso for a while.....all $2 stuffs but quite nice stuffs de....next time i wanna go buy the hard paper boxes with nice nice pattern like heart shapes and etc.... can keep my things....haha.... after that got home still eat!! oh man~ so full.....furthermore, now I damn fat le....put on lotsa weights liao....somemore just last night my sis bought durians....tempted me to eat!!! oh my gosh!!! =I have decided to go on a diet liao...pls let me be able to make it!!!! =Laptop Problem= Hmm...I think my laptop encounter some problems...don't know bcos of what? maybe virus??? Like Limay said, probably it's virus.....the problem is, whenever i minimise my windows, they will disappeared...but the programmes are still running......so whenever I chat with people, I have to find their nick and click on it again.....so troublesome!!!! I tried to scan my com liao..also no use....tried to adjust the taskbar also no use....and another thing was, the symantec anti-virus client is currently disabled!!! what is happening man~? The virus attacked even the anti-virus programme? USELESS la....... I think Tuesday i will go to school early b4 training starts to ask the IT helpdesk for help....no other options for me now le~ damn hate this thing! = [ =Saying for the day= [ ALways stay happy....a smile a day keeps wrinkles away....Stay alive in reality....Always be who you are....be who u like to see....be the one to be proud of yourself...find ur own =self=]

// the peaceful night sky

- leave me alone.. i want some peace.. -

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Friday, December 10, 2004 @ 12/10/2004 03:52:00 PM

[NO ONE is worth your tears and the only one who is, will never make you cry. If you love someone, put their name in a circle, instead of a heart, because hearts can break, but circles go on forever.] [Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say. If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them. ] ["Don't frown, because you never know who's falling in love with your smile!" and "If you judge people, you have no time to love them" and "Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle." Plato] [It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone - but it takes a lifetime to forget someone."]

// the peaceful night sky

HappY bIrtHdaY XiaoDe!!!! Finally 18!!! hehe~ hmm....wiSh u All the Best ya? May Ur WiShes CoMe TrUe!!! =Happy DaY for ya= =Clumsy=Damn Pain= heyyyyy......Kizzy!!!! You know what Kizzy? I am such an idiotic clumsy being.....who kicks and bang into the legs of the table every now and then for don't know how many times le..what's the hell with me man~? I hate myself!!!! Last night i just got up from my seat....and tada~~~~!!!! hard impact onto the 'beautiful' leg of the table....guess that was the first time of the hardest impact ever! the worst of the usual was, i fell down as well!!! Alamak~ such as shame! I was wailing and whining away......almost crying at the same time....damn Pain lor! Like my little toe gonna drop off anytime.....It was the SAME spot of my toe that i hit it with something.....it's always that particular toe!!! WHY??? Furthermore, my sis still can laugh at me!!!!! *sob sob*......it's understandable why she laughed at me la....i deserved it mah! = serve me rite!= =saying for the day= [NEVER GIVE UP EASILY= Go for it!!!=] lalalalala~~~~

// the peaceful night sky

- leave me alone.. i want some peace.. -

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Wednesday, December 08, 2004 @ 12/08/2004 10:58:00 PM

HAPpy BiRthDay TO the 3 Of you All AGaiN!!!! hahahaha~~~

// the peaceful night sky

=Chalet= HeY Kizzy...Miss me ? haha..I have been away to chalet since Sunday to Tuesday(5th-7th dec)...hmm...that was quite fun u noe? haha...A chalet organised by the 3 birthday gals-[jasminete, xiaode and meiwei] Guess what? it was the same chalet at Coasta Sand, the SAME unit that I ever went b4 when I had class gathering when i was sec 3! hahaha....so concidentally huh? The chalet was actually quite fun bahx....except that we didn't have a BBQ, but a buffet instead....then at night, we went night biking..haha...it was quite fun! went to bike for several times around the park..and we also went to play at the playground...haha..so fun man~i was like so 'high'...high spirit la...hehe...the rental for the bike so expensive man! $15 for single bike and $25 for double seats one...Limay and me rented the double one, so we shared the cost..she can't ride it herself so she rode behind me..hehe..fun fun!...anyway, i also like to ride the double seats one as well...haha...hmm....at around 3+ am we were still biking ...haha....hmmm...ride until my butt damn pain ah! Luckily no muscle ache...hoho.. oh yah....b4 we went to ride for the 3rd round, gary...vincente..hongchuan...they all drank some alcohol...black cat one....some of their faces were all red already...i also tried one small plastic cup...after a while i felt a bit headache and wanna puke....but feeling still okie bahx...haha...i saw the worst situation of the drunken guys there ah...hongchuan lor....he first timer still drank 12 cups...wahhh!!...perhaps he wanna follow his jersey number bahx!..hahaha....number twelveeeeee.....vincente drank 6 onli also almost cannot make it....haha....hongchuan's blood circulation too slow le bahx...i think he made it faster by going biking after drinking!haha.....then after that they all rode until the sea there....sat at the rocks and relax....bhwaaaa!!!!.......hongchuan again! guess wat? he rolled here and there around the grass and the rocks...jumping around like mad...see his pattern like very xinku like that....Gary kept telling him to calm down and lie down..but he just wouldn't listen....haizyo...but also symphatise with him la....hmm...hopefully that experience will make him regret..haha....hmm..by the time we got back to the chalet, it was already about 4.30am bahx....and i was not really sleepy yet..*surprised* haha...it's like that bahx..if got things to do then still active, nothing to do then sleepy....but then I took a shower and felt much better....after a whole day with smell...haha...everybody all slept le except meifong and gary( liang ren shi jie..hehe)...i slept at the staircase until my arm so pain...at 6am, meifong woke me up and i went with her to sleep in her house in Hougang and accompanied her back in the afternoon....we slept until 1pm...hahaha....felt better...after meifong packed up, we left for the chalet....hmm...the 2nd day was a little boring bahx...staying in the chalet for almost the whole day....watched TV....and at night...Gary told us some ghost stories....and he purposely scared us on one occasion....wahhh!!!!...the action was like so sudden lor....making some of us screamed!!! oh man~ I still remember that time wanfen sat near the bed...back facing under the bed playing pokers...and she felt something 'touching' her butt...*goosebumps*...some more at the same bed....that's why xiaode got scared and wanna come up the bed and slept with meiwei and me...it was so squeezy yet cosy..hehe..but then i got scared of the gap in between the two beds....scared of somethingggg..haha...anyway, also feeling back pain to sleep in the gap....so, meiwei sacrificed her sweater and put at the gap there and some towels and my sweater too...thanks meiwei!! =) u r so nice! hehe...we had to check out at 10.30am on Tuesday... =Training= We had to go back to school for vball training at 4 pm...went back to slept in con10...but i just couldn't sleep..maybe had enough sleep le? haha...The training was so boring....doing some physical excercis again under the shelter.....hate it...all bcos of the rain! we were actually dismissed at around 7pm...bcos of the stupid rain! hur! but den we persuaded Bk to let us train cos it's too early to go home....supposed to end at around 7.30pm, but we wanna play more ...haha... =Injuries= My stupid wrist got a large bruise there now...oh...i didn't even realise that when i was playing vball...don't know when on earth did i get that bruise from at the very beginning.... i think it was from an old injury bahx..bcos couples of days back. it recovered from blue-black, and now it's like more serious....it's now RED colour de...last time i played with the blue-black one still okie leh...not pain..........=>now pain!!! *sob* why like that de? hur hur...don't know tomorrow can play or not leh....=so weak= hate myself* skip halfway also chest pain...can't do push ups properly also...fingers weak! up till now my two thumbs still hurts at times... definitely one day it will get inhured again...oh! why am i so vulnerable to injuries man????=( =Dries up= I am a broker now! )=bankrupt=( haha....i can't believe i spent so much recently....my this week's allowance no more le!!!*sob sob *...if my sis know, i sure get super big scolding from her! I finally got her to buy me a sports bag..hehe...cos i don't want to use my own money..hee~.......anyway, i also no money le...hmm....regretted buying the kneepad so soon....it's not a must now mah....spent $16 to buy it...don't want to claim $ from my sis for this one....only claimed it for the shoes..hehe...if i didn't buy the kneepad, then i still can have my $16 back...hehe....haizyo...nvm bahx.....haha..i LOVE the red colour vball shoes...so nice....nicer than black..nicer than blue....hehe...but must wait till the current one spoil first....going soon=)make more holes first!hahahahhaha.....

=Saying for the day=

[====lalalalalalalalalala~~~~~`I am happy!!!!! I wanna be happy!!! i wanna be free from FAN NAO~~~I LOVE LIFE JUZ THE WAY IT IS~ LALA~ i wanna sing....i wanna play!!! whoahohoho~ that's the way i find my happiness each day....hahaha~~~~====]

// the peaceful night sky

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Friday, December 03, 2004 @ 12/03/2004 04:11:00 PM

=Lesson=KbOx=Singing= Long time no blog abt the happenings so far!!! haha..Kizzy...how are you? hmm hmm.... First of all, today is my Tu di's birthday!haha..finally 18 le huh? Jasmine also 18 liao!haha... Know what happened today? We had lesson as usual...Eng Design.. last day of school of this term! haha...hmm...today we can actually end our lesson early de...but suddenly CuiTing thought of going to Kbox, furthermore, it's my Tu di's birthday...haha....so we decided to go for the 11am to 2pm slot one....Mr Yap so funny and flexible ah..haha...he let us come back for the 3rd meeting at 2.30pm...haha....there are only 13 people in our class today and there are altogether 3 teams....the other 2 teams wanna present at 11.30am..haha...and our team wanna present at 2.30pm!!! haha......so today's lesson was like that...there were two 3rd meetings for today...so he had to repeat his 6th ppt...whaha~ so...we (Tobias, Tudi, Xiaohsin, Cuiting and me) reached the Kbox Cineleisure at11.30am....haha...we sang and sang...haha...so nice~ but den...i think i sang until off tune de.....always like that de...we sang mostly chinese songs...me and cuiting stood on the sofa seat and sang...that was more exciting!!...haha...our lunch came and we globbled up the food hungrily...had been waiting for so long until 1.20pm....so hungry!!!! somemore, since morning, we have not eaten anything...We reached school at 2.35pm? haha..late! but nvm....cos Mr Yap has given us more time to get ready....hahahahha...one funny thing was, we are the only team presenting to Mr Yap...haha....no audience...so sad....haha...but good mah...i got more confidence to present...haha..mad me ah!so our lesson still ended quite early...by 3.20pm i left the class for con10 le!! hehe...hmmm.....today is a pretty fun day! whoooo~ =CHALET coming= Yeah!!!! CHALET coming...hehe..so EXCITED!!! I wanna night bike!haha ....i wanna play! haha....Finally asked my brother-in-law when he was in good mood...hehe...recently he was angry with me.....for some reasons.....haiz.....for the reasons of *studying*...he gave me a so-called hard lecture on my attitude towards studying.....haiz.....just said that my motivation to study has lost since soooo long ago liao....haiz...and i agreed......he just told me to get it back...hmm....and from that talk, i think i tried to find it back? hopefully bahx ....haiz haiz.... Luckily i din cry like everytime i did..haha...cos this time it's more of the soft approach to telling me....bcos he told me straight that " I know u don't like people to criticise you, but i think i have to now" so...i just think that i shouldn't be bother whether ppl criticise me or not now....it's my fault...so i have to accept it...hmm....he really emphasis so much on studying ah....even like now....my nephews' exams were over already, yet we still have to do holiday revisions as usual...set time table..etc...I started to dread holidays now.....wat i do most is housework!!! that's why!!! hahaha.....hmm....wat to do..? it's like that.....shhhhh...complain silently....hmmm....now it's another thing....yesh...I am allowed to go to Germany...but now I don't wanna go le......haiz....yesh....they told me I can go provided I don't have any programme in the school during the holidays next year...if go will go for 1 month?...but but..the only programme i have is vball trainings....that's what BK's worrying about for the YOuth Cup and the IVP....oh my gosh!!! But the way they allowed me was so doubtful....that's made me no mood to go as well....so just forget it....just have to break my 2nd sis heart....haiz.....

// the peaceful night sky

***2Nd DEcember 2004*** HAPpY BirThDAY to JaSmInE SeE!!!! HaPpY BiRthDaY to JiA An!!!! -WiSh u all e best! May all ur wishes come True~ Take CaRe! ***3rd DeceMber 2004*** HAppY BirThdAy to ErNesT(Tu di) Shi fu zhu ni shen ri kuai le....best wishes to you!~ =) =) =) =) =) = ) =)

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You are Sneakers!

You're an active girl, who's all about function You dress for the occasion - comfort comes first Your perfect guy? Someone who can keep up with you. You'll find him - but you might have to slow down to see him!

What Kind Of Women's Shoe Are You?

FEBRUARY attitude!

FEBRUARY

Abstract thoughts
Loves reality and abstract
Intelligent and clever
Changing personality
Temperamental
Quiet, shy and humble
Low self esteem
Honest and loyal
Determined to reach goals
Loves freedom
Rebellious when restricted
Loves aggressiveness
Too sensitive and easily hurt
Showing anger easily
Dislike unnecessary things
Loves making friends but rarely shows it
Daring and stubborn
Ambitious
Realizing dreams and hopes
Sharp
Loves entertainment and leisure
Romantic on the inside not outside
Superstitious and ludicrous
Spendthrift
Learns to show emotions

Phanthipha, your true color is Green!

You're green, the color of growth and vigor. Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum — reliable and trustworthy. People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color!

Phanthipha, your passion is Bashful Blush!

Yours is a passion driven from the inside — not the outside. Some may misinterpret that to mean you're more timid than others when it comes to love, school, and life in general. But really, we suspect it's just that you focus more on driving toward your goals than announcing them to the world. While some people have to stand at a podium to stake their territorial claims — on guys, teams, or the honor roll — you're more likely to take a less direct route. (After all, it's easier to make your point when you're not caught like a deer in the spotlight.) A level-headed discussion with someone close to your issue, if not the person directly, is more your style — whether feeling out if your crush is already taken or asking your parents for a much-deserved raise in allowance. Your careful approach usually pans out better than creating a dramatic scene before a gawking audience. Sure, you go after what you want in life. But your style has never been to grab the bull by the horns. The patience you've cultivated has no doubt helped you become who you are today — a devoted friend, daughter, girlfriend, or student. So keep at it — picking your private battles. Then stand back to watch your bashful blush work its passionate magic!

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

Phanthipha, you're a Steady Supporter Stand by your man — that's just something you naturally do. Once you've committed to a relationship, you are a constant companion who enjoys the comfort and stability that comes from being a couple. Not quick to judge, accuse, or think the worst, you have a lot of trust (in him and in yourself), and you rarely worry about where he is or who he's with. For you, mutual respect is of utmost importance. You are comfortable and confident in your own skin, making you a great pillar of strength in all your relationships. Whether he's striving to climb a mountain or land a promotion, you have his back. Best part is, you know he's got yours too.

Career Interest Inventory

Phanthipha, based on your responses, your top career area is Education and Training
Careers in this field often demand that you have an idealistic mindset. Whether it's teaching new information, skills, or behavior, you need to have a zeal for interacting with others and being in charge. Most likely it's important for you to know that your patience and communication skills can have a lasting impact on the lives of others.

What Does Your Style Says About You?

Phanthipha, your style says you're Sporty and Fun No matter which team you get a kick out of the most — soccer, softball, track, basketball, or cheerleading — you've got a love for games and staying active. Clothes and fashion are important to you, but for a team player like you, it's about more than just looks. You want to be comfortable and prepared for anything that might come your way. Whether you're more of an athlete or a fan, you like what sports can do for people — overcome challenges, learn something new, push themselves. Your cool style says that you're always up for a new game. And that'll always score you points!

Which Emoticon Are You?

Phanthipha, the emoticon that represents you best is the Smiling Face What's up, smiley? Somehow you just always seem to find a way to turn that frown upside down. Your upbeat attitude and friendly demeanor brighten up any room, including your favorite chat room. Like your classic emoticon counterpart, you're a staple on anyone's list. Boring days and sleepless nights are far more bearable when you're online to chat. Whether you're shooting the breeze, catching up, or giving out advice, you can cheer up anyone on the other side of the conversation. So keep lightening the mood, making new friends, and bringing smiles to other folks' faces. After all, it's just so natural for you!

What Kind of Cool Are You?

Phanthipha, you're Calm, Cool, and Collected Do your friends like to lean on your shoulder? Ask you for advice in life and love? Put you on speed-dial for emergencies? We bet they do. You're as balanced as they come. When it comes to making decisions, you're not afraid to take the time to weigh your options carefully in order to make the right choice. And it takes more than a few obstacles to rattle your cool head. The good news is that you've also got lots of heart, and you make sure that people know that you always have their backs. There's almost nothing more important to you than the people in your life, so being a support to them is the coolest thing around. Just like you.

Heart-Strong Idealist

Phanthipha, you follow your heart when it comes to success You're an impassioned individual who just can't suppress your ideals. You've got a strong sense of right and wrong, and want to let people know when they've crossed the line. Sure, there are times when you sit back to hear both sides of an argument. But people had better stay out of the way when your fiery passions take hold. But just because you can be a bit of a rebel with a cause, it doesn't mean you're incapable of being understanding and compassionate. It's because you're so invested in your ideas and interests that you can work so tirelessly toward your goals and speak up for what you believe in. So keep pouring your heart into it. With conviction like yours, you're sure to succeed!

What Breed of Dog are You?

Phanthipha, you're a Chihuahua! No bones about it, you're an energetic, devoted Chihuahua. For your breed, size definitely doesn't matter. After all, sometimes the best things (diamonds, car keys, Godiva truffles) come in small packages. Honest and straightforward, you're never afraid to speak up for what you believe in, especially if it's a cause near and dear to your heart. Having such a passionate personality can come with a few drawbacks, though. You can be moody at times, and people often find it hard to live up to your high standards. But once you make a friend, it's for life. Saucy and intense, your energy and unfailing loyalty make you a great companion. Woof!

Are You a Natural Leader?

Congratulations, you're a real leader! Your leadership skills are quite strong, so don't be afraid to step up to the plate when problems need solving — you'll do great. You've got a solid combination of positive leadership traits — from organizational skills to communication ability. These talents make you a great resource in the workplace, someone people can look to for guidance and direction. Still, there are a few things you might need to work on. To brush up on the different components of leadership, check out your scores below:

You Gender Identity

Phanthipha, you're 59% masculine
This is based on how you scored on a variety of traits that, founded on classic research and our own studies, are typically associated with men. You're also 41% feminine, which is based on how you scored on traits that are typically associated with women. When we compare your results with other women it shows that you are somewhat more masculine than other women. But what is gender identity exactly? A person's gender identity is defined by the extent to which they see themselves as masculine or feminine. Every person possesses both masculine and feminine qualities to some degree, however the extent to which each person has these qualities differs widely. While you were taking the test, we calculated your scores in 6 areas typically defined as masculine and 6 areas typically defined as feminine.

Who's the man of your dreams?

Phanthipha, The Boy Next Door is the man of your dreams The guy next door can be a lot more than the kid who played a great game of tag and buried you in snowballs. He can be the man of your dreams. A laidback and fun girl like you doesn't need a glass slipper or fancy jewels — you just want a guy who knows how to have a good time and has a handle on what's important. You're the kind of girl who wants to marry her best friend, so you might not have to look far for the perfect guy for you. Whoever said you have to kiss a lot of frogs to find your prince wasn't talking about you. Tag — you're it!

Class IQ test

Congratulations, Phanthipha!
Your IQ score is 129
This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others. Your Intellectual Type is Visual Mathematician. This means you are gifted at spotting patterns — both in pictures and in numbers. These talents combined with your overall high intelligence make you good at understanding the big picture, which is why people trust your instincts and turn to you for direction — especially in the workplace. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

What hairstyle matches you?

Phanthipha, your hairstyle should be Flirty From cute curls to a fun flip, your hairstyle should show off the fact that you know how to strike the perfect balance between sassy and sweet. With your charisma and outgoing personality, you're sure to light up any room. From parties to workdays to lazy Sundays, your style always radiates your fun-loving charm. With your natural knack for wooing and your willingness to go out on a limb for what you want, it's no surprise that your style is sure to shine. So whether your hairstyle is lusciously long or coifed into the perfect pixie, we bet you turn heads wherever you go. Way to wow them!

What gets you whipped?

Phanthipha, you're whipped because he's Sweet Nice guys finish last? Not a chance if they meet a sweetie like you. There's not a thing in the world you wouldn't do for loved ones, and you wanna make sure you find a guy who's got his priorities straight too. Whether he's a bull-rider or a businessman, he'd better have a big heart. When you fall, you fall hard. And it's the little things that matter like when he opens the door for you, cooks you dinner, or leaves sweet notes in your pocket. Brains and brawn are fine and dandy, but he won't win your heart if he isn't in touch with his sensitive side. Awwww, how sweet!

What Type Are You?

You are a Hopeless romantic
Do you swoon when a guy recites poetry to you? Go ga-ga over a bouquet of hand-picked wildflowers? Then there's no doubt about it — you're a textbook Hopeless Romantic. Chances are you love soft music, candlelight, and long walks on the beach at sunset. Crying at sappy movies (your favorite kind) is a given — a box of tissues is a must — and you've have had your wedding planned since grade school. You're looking for a deep relationship — a soulmate. Traditional and sympathetic, guys love that they can open up to you and talk to you about their feelings, their past, and their hopes for the future. How can a suitor win your heart? By romancing you. Sending you flowers, surprising you with a picnic lunch, or going for a horse-drawn carriage ride. Before you know it, you'll be creating a life-long love story.

Pisces Personality

Like its symbol of two fish swimming in opposite directions, Pisceans are always torn between choices whether to seek the light or sink into the darkness. Being well liked for their kind and sympathetic nature, their charm of manner and carefree nature will impress many. You are compassionate, and unless pushed to the wall, will rarely hurt anyone. A Piscean can be very caustic but the sarcasm is not always direct and generally goes unnoticed. However, this can land you in a spot every once in a while. You find it difficult to conform and follow rules or to cope with discipline. When the going gets really rough, the Piscean may try to flee down river and hide amongst the vast schools of fish swimming lazily around. The very weak-willed among you are likely to indulge in alcohol and drugs to escape. Alternatively, you might be able to pour out your emotions in creative arts. You put your emotions in poetry or short verse but seldom open up to those around you on a personal basis. Although you might be impractical and somewhat uneasy with the real world, you are brave and prefer a lot of independence. Pisceans like to delve in spiritual matters and lots of you are fascinated by the occult. Maybe because many fish are psychic or their dreams can be strange and portential. Remember one thing: you are the culmination of all that has gone before, whilst Aries is the birth of the zodiac, Pisces the twelfth sign is death and eternity, you are the distillation of all the other signs.

Pisces Lover

In the world of romance, you crave fairytales, being more in love with the idea of love than being in love itself. Though you are strongly attracted to good looks, your attention will completely fizzle out if your partner is not intelligent; you may just simply lose interest once you have been able to "secure" the object of your desire. For some, the pursuit is sometimes more fun than the end result. Those born under Scorpio, Cancer, and Pisces make ideal partners for Pisces. Pisceans can be unnecessarily suspicious and jealous, and this might cause a lot of heartache. Although you will expect a perfect marriage, your unpredictable moods will be the reason for some tension at times. The most important ingredient you bring to a relationship is love. You are gentle, sensitive, and a romantic through and through, valuing fidelity in a marriage and will be kind and affectionate to your spouse and children. Though you let your partner take on a dominant role in public, you like to rule at home. As you long for love, it is essential that you establish a loving relationship with your family.

Pisces Professional

Pisceans will do well in performing arts, especially the theatre. In science, Pisceans tend to work in the fields of either physics or medicine. They will also do well in ocean-based occupations or working with animals. Pisceans normally have talents that will get them money and fame. The streak of independence in you rarely allows you to be dependent on others. You will be ready to help the needy, having no consideration for a rainy day, even if you are not sure that it will be returned. You hate to chase money owed, hoping that it will be returned voluntarily. You are often distracted when bored, which tends to affect your work adversely. You need to be focused and inspired to give your best.

Pisces Traveller

You love water and would head straight for some beach resort. Perhaps scuba diving and water skiing on holiday is your dream holiday; though splashing around on the beach is your idea of fun too. You are generally very emotional and romantic so would love to holiday with your partner.

Pisces Well Being

Pisces people have slow metabolisms, which is why they wake up sleepy eyed and listless, poor eating habits can bring troubles so try to set regimes and stick to them, Pisceans lungs are not strong, they can be a bit asthematic and are also prone to colds and flu bugs. Those of you living in cold climates should take adequate protection against the cold (keep your head, hands and neck covered). Those living in warmer climes should take special care of personal hygiene. Most of you are less than average in height, with large or small hands, big feet or little feet there are generaly no in betweens. You have a tendency to put on weight, unless you make special efforts to fight it off. A double chin is common among Pisceans and a good number among you have large eyes and a wide mouth. Ankles and feet are the vulnerable areas of Pisceans. Some also suffer from liver and digestive afflictions and varicose veins. Painting, listening to music, reading and dance can help calm your nerves. Swimming is a good form of exercise as well as relaxation for you. Pisceans are often good at martial arts as they have the necessary inner strength, try some Tai Chi first thing in the morning to put life in perspective for the rest of the day.

Pisces Luck

Warm colours like red, yellow and orange are lucky for Pisces. Your lucky stone is amethyst, whereas Sunday, Tuesday and Thursday are favorable days. Wednesday and Friday do not prove to be good for people under this zodiac sign. Neptune is your ruler and your element is water (WATER Water people are never petty. They are clever and plan well ahead. But they often tend to be timid. The element Water is represented by blue or black. Water shapes include gentle undulations like waves in a river. A water house has numerous bays, and like the ebb and flow of water, experiences regular change in fortunes)

Pisces Teens

The best shoulder to cry on -- that's the Pisces girl for you. Compassion and sympathy are the hallmarks of this girl and don't be surprised if she ends up in the profession of social welfare. Since much of her time will be taken up relieving others' worries, she will hardly find time to pamper her personal self. Comfortable in second-hand clothes, she'll be happy in whatever makes her feel comfortable. The Pisces lass has a dreamy disposition and loses track when she wanders. She is invariably late for appointments. The best institution suited for her will be, preferably, a small liberal arts college. Always willing to help a friend, the inner beauty of a Pisces lady lies in her creativity and powers of empathy. Kind and compassionate, a Piscean lad generally goes out of his way to help others. He never intentionally hurt others and seeks to avoid confrontation at all costs. He spends much of his time in the cocoon of his private dream world. He is absent minded at times. He sees the world through rose tinted glasses, he walks around with his head in the clouds. He is generally a loner and often has to be drawn into the company of friends. By and large, he is very selective about his friends. He often lacks in determination and this may account for his not realising his potential. He is an impressionable person who could get into wrong company that might have potentially disastrous consequences. If he can be motivated to work hard, there is very little he cannot achieve.