Skipped school. feelings of ???
Today i had the nerve of 'pon-ing' school. haiz..lol. reminded lena not to be late, and there she went again. which made me really pissed off. well..anyway...she asked whether wanna 'pon' together? haha..i liked the idea cos i really dread today's elective module. so stress under that strict faci. she made me go mad. cos i dun usually talk in her class cos i have no one i really know. they are all the SAS students. oh my god, they are all english spoken ones. speak until so 'ah-mo' educated. shoot a lot of questions during presentation which made me so stress. i can die in this kind of class manz...so here, means im from a slacker engineering class. lol~ anyway, stop it here. my day so bad le and late le, might as well go along with the idea of 'pon-ing'. haiz..we called up shiwen as well..she's so 'onz'..and of cos she tagged along. yeah. hehe...
suddenly i feel so bored abt writing detailed stuff in whatever i do now. i rather say what i feel now. next time when im bored then i write more detailed stuff bahx.
right now, the urge to feel what my head and heart are telling me to pour it down. only during this time. if i continue to write everyday, i would cry manz..
i hide my tears within.
im faking to let go.yet i havent.
time is all i need?
am i sure?
or do i need assurance?
i cant cry now cos i have to go school tml's morning.
yet i cannot control. i have to limit myself. sighs..
do u know that it really feel horrible to be such a cruel person?
do u know that im a soft hearted person thats why i felt really lost?
i cant fake it all. my heart feels pain
the pretense is hurting me.
i have to pretend not to hurt the others around me.but i know i hurt you
what you want is me loving you
but i could not give you
that made me really cold blooded
i chose to give u up cos of my own reasons
something to ask myself...why am i not getting over for someone whom i think wouldn't suit me or wouldn't be mine?
i wanna learn to let go with an ease.
please hate me. but im with guilt. im faking to accept. but i hate to hear u say u hate me.
at the same time i think it would be better for u if u hate me to let go. i will condon to it.
peace off :)
*staying happy-go-lucky
*freedom
*get into a Uni
*PR
*good paying job
*a new hair-do/image
*changes of contents in my wardrobe
*new sets of shoes/cosmetics
*perfumes
*skin care products
*being a teacher/engineering assist/SUCCESSFUL career woman
*independence
*CAR LISENSE
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